One shot down.

So we got up at 4am this morning to get to Missoula on time for my shot.  After that as we were heading back decieded since we were there might as well check out the mall.  But well Steve didn't know how to get there.  45 mins later I call my friend and get directions.  Spent time and money there we shouldnt have.  Then we get on the road to go home.  I am trying to sleep and open my eyes to see that Steve has passed the exit the next one to turn around was quite abit away.  Get turned around on the right exit and hit the construction, which was not that bad but someone dropped a tool in the middle of it that punctured our tire.  "Lucky "for us it was one of the few places to pull off and change it.  Then we had to drive 50 or so miles to a town going 45mph in a 70mph zone....of course most of it is one lane.  So people must have hated us(sorry).  Lucky we got a used tire for cheap and with great service at Les Scwab in Ronan.  Made it home, Steve went in to relax while I ran to work for the 3 hrs left in the day.  What a crazy week this is going to be! 

Just a reminder

In case anyone has forgotten.  I am a clutzy dork!  Went to a bonfire for Lori's daughter Ashleys 16th birthday.  And what do I do?  What only I can, I fall into the lake with not one but 2 cell phones in my pocket.  I really deserve and award people!! Luckly the cell phones still work.  And I only have a few bumps and bruises. 

So quick update.  The 28th I am going to Missoula for the first shot in my butt.....I will bring the second shot back with me to be adminstered on the 29th.  On the 30th I do my lab work and then they give me the Radioactive Iodine.  Oct 2nd I will get to finally do the scan.  Sadly until the scan I once again am stuck on the low iodine diet!! YUCK!!!! For any of you who might want to know more about why here is a good website to check out.  http://www.thyca.org/rai.htm#diet 
I swear if I could I would mainline Ranch into my veins right now......Yummy dairy.  LOL

Are you freaking kidding me.

So as I am sitting down to watch tv with my husband.  A commercial comes on and...................it for snuggies for dogs?!?!!? WTF is this for real?  I have thought that snuggies themselfs are sad.  But who the heck would do this kind of thing to their dog? 

Reason

So I have had some people ask me why I would post this information about my life.  The answer is not a black and white one.  Alot of my posting this has to do with the fact that I want to let people know what is going on.  Part of it is that I spent ALOT of my earlier years lying about almost everything.  So now I take the truth to the extreme, I try very hard not to hide anything.  And the last main part is I hope deep down that reading this will help someone else.  I know that one blog in paticular helped me to see the strength and humor that someone else had going thru this.  I am hoping that maybe someone will get the same from me. 

Yesterday was a hard day for me.  It is easy to get tired of being strong sometimes.  And I feel like I am trying so hard to put on a happy face it is exhausting.  That is the one bad thing about working the front desk.  You have to smile and be happy even when you want to just hide out and growl.  But I made it thru.  And today is looking like a great day!

Here is a bit of a text message that I shared with my friend DJ who just left me to move to vegas.  Think it will make some of you smile.  I know it made me laugh.

Hollie- Did you get there safe and sound?
DJ- Yes yesterday. Rental truck almost got rolled.  Aarons friend fell asleep.
Hollie-Wow that is scary! glad you got there.  Sorry I was distraced with my crap and didnt talk to you longer :(
DJ-No biggie. Have your appt yet?
Hollie-its looking like my scan with be on the 25th
DJ-You will have to let me know how it goes.
Hollie-but I have to go to missoula and get two shots in my butt first
DJ- What is with your butt? You like pokey things there?
Hollie- shhhhhh dont tell its our secret :) lol
DJ-Not so much silly!

Gray

Yesterday I found my first gray hair.  Now I must say that if anyone has earned gray hair it is me.  So I will keep it and not pluck it away.  My husband has already had a few we are only 30 yrs old but well life keeps us on our toes. 

Speaking about on our toes.....my cancer has returned yet again.  After a long drawn out process trying to get a local dr to see the light, I did the right thing and had to call my specielist office crying...they were so wonderful and got me in the same day.  When she looked at what the dr in town had been doing she got right on it and ran the correct blood test.  From the results of that she decieded to do a full neck ultrasound.  The results show I have at least 3 lymph nodes in my neck that are affected.  So I will go in for a full bodyscan in about a week to make sure it has not spread any farther.  After that we will deciede a treatment it might be surgery or RAI again, but none of us know yet. 

As my friend put it we had the blessing of my husband being laid off his job right before this.  So  he will be my caretaker and support in the mean time.  I hope he finds something soon but it might be a blessing in disguise that he will be around to go to dr's with me and help out with everything.  He will be getting unemployement.  Also we are very blessed in my job, I will be working my same schedule and shift but they are willing to work with anytime I need off for appt's for treatments.  Not only do I have alot of wonderful supportive friends there.  But everyone there in managment are being very understanding and helpful. I love all of the family and friends I have been blessed with. 

My brother Bram and his girlfriend Tessa came to visit us for a long weekend.  It was so great seeing them!  We drove around and explored a few place's and then on Labor day we took them to Glacer National Park.  It was so beautiful....We took a "trail"  down to one of the waterfall area's. I managed to lose my footing on the way down and almost took out poor Tessa.... I knew it hurt at the time but after I got home and checked out the damage the next morning I found a bit of a suprise.  I had a stick stuck in my butt..yes you are reading right a small stick has stuck about an inch into my left butt check.  Surprisingly my husband did not want to remove it.  So I waited about 2 days before I got up the courage to take a really hot bath and then remove it my self.........OWWWWWWWEEEEYYYY!  Also we took Bram&Tessa to the Going to the sun road to Logans pass.  When we got there it was snowing....a mini blizzard and oh so cold.  But still beautiful.  Loved having the two of them here.  Miss all of my family alot hopefully we will see them soon.
I have decieded to use this blog more, not only to update on health, family and life.  But also just as a journal  of sorts, someday's I might only post a sentence or a pic.  But I am aiming to do at least 2 postings a week, just to share a little bit of me with anyone who is crazy enough to want to see it. 

Please keep us in  your hearts and prayers and remember we will always keep you in ours.